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About Hold Me Under: Water, Air, Earth, Fire, Book 1 (Unabridged)

Love is cheap. Love is cruel. Love can’t save us. Victor Lang had everything—looks, money, fame. A chance to become the greatest swimmer in history. Until a failed dope test brought him crashing down. According to the rumors, he turned into a recluse, a drug addict, a whore. Broken beyond repair. Incapable of love. And for some reason, he’s set his sights on me. A freak accident in his pool throws me into a world of wealth and status and people who are willing to do anything to get what they want. Before I know it, I’m being paid to fly to Italy and pose as his boyfriend. Trapped at his side, I learn what it means to truly hate someone. Turns out, that’s exactly what he wants. I can’t save him, and I can’t love him. But as things fall apart and I discover the truths he’s hiding, I learn that hate can be greater than love—an obsession, a prayer, dark days and darker nights, a need to be the only one who hurts him. Hate can heal the worst wounds love leaves behind. But I have problems of my own, a broken spirit and loved ones to protect. And I’m scared to face the things he’s waking up inside of me. A gritty, emotional, epic hate-to-love slow burn with an inexperienced top and his bratty bottom, hurt/comfort, obsession, and healing. Contains dark themes, adult content, and potential triggers, though every effort was made to portray them thoughtfully and sensitively. Specific triggers (potential spoilers): sexual abuse (off the page), suicidal ideation, drug abuse, disordered eating, trauma, death, mental illness, homophobic language